More focussed this week!!! :)

This week has been good so far :)

I had one exam this week -a 500 level course: Semiconductor Characterization! Exam went fine, I was well-prepared, had gone through previous year examination papers from seniors, spent quite a time in library/lab -NOT that I studied full time, time pass सुद्धा चालु होताच, पण nights मारल्या एक-दोन (ह्या वेळी exams मुळे :D) . बाकी मनाला लगाम घालून होतो/आहे and I'm talking about reminisces -nothing else! ;) :P :D

कारण एकच, गेल्या semester मधे लागलेली वाट! ताक फुंकून पिण्याचाच प्रकार हा काहीसा! I scored really bad in both my 1st midterms and did well for rest of the midterms and finals, but got B and B+. आणि कारण काय तर फक्त आळस आणि टाइमपास... मनाचे फार भावनिक लाड करत असतो आपण, नाही का?!!!

So hopefully, history won't repeat this time! पण एक phase अशी येते, ज्या phase मधे मी सध्या आहे... की स्कोर्स चा आपण विचार कमी करू लागतो! All you care about is how much you know, how much you understand. How much of this will I be able apply when I step into the industry tomorrow. आणि then even if your exam goes bad, well then -of course you DO feel disappointed, but then there is this good feeling in the background somewhere की वाह वाह, छान अभ्यास केला होता ह्या वेळी :)

खर्या अर्थाने खुश होण्याचं कारण म्हणजे productivity of this week, the way I managed my time. On 19th I had exam, on 18th I had a meeting with my MS advisor -so had to show him some thing about what I was working on, 17th was a due date for one lab project. Add to that preparation for the exam, and did I mention career fair on 18th Feb??? So some Resume preparations and all the related stuff! I managed everything, was up in Hayden library whole of 17th night, came to my RA lab in the morning, slept for some 3-4 hours and attended both the lectures that day. And all these days, I have seen myself playing my keyboard/flute/harmonica more than ever (well, ever in US so far! भारतात तासन् तास जायचे असे) and there were some bits of Badminton/treadmill/yoga -although might not be that significant! :) It was possible to bunk some things or postponing -for example attending lectures on 17th, but I'm feeling great that I managed all. May not be a big deal, i know... but its just that I'm feeling more focused now! :)

मग सोमवार ऐवजी शुक्रवारी कुकिंग केलं ह्या आठवड्यात! (I'm fortunate to have supportive Apt-mates after all :) ) सोपीच होती म्हणा भाजी (कोबी होती), पण स्वत:सोबत इतरांकरता सुद्धा करायची म्हटली की मी बराच conscious होतो। ह्या वेळी काही न विचारता/बिचकता जमली ह्यासाठी थोडासा खुश झालो!

hehe... आता मी हे वरचं सगळं वाचतोय तर ते लोकप्रभा सारख्या अंकातलं article वाटतंय! मन मोकळं करतोय इतकंच बाकी काही नाही! तेच ते one of the "भावनिक लाड":D

Oh and here are few links I came across this week, I would recommend you reading :)

Are we under threat???
http://www.rediff.com/news/2009/feb/19barbarians-at-the-gate-are-we-ready.htm

We will take care of your economy! :P
http://www.nytimes.com/2009/02/11/opinion/11friedman.html?_r=3

Some fun in Marathi
http://www.misalpav.com/node/2921
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uu2vv_d4Tn0

(आणि हो हे पोस्ट लिहित असतांना एक मैत्रीण ऑनलाइन होती, जी योगायोगाने माझे आधीचे पोस्ट्स वाचत होती! it feels good to know that people are reading what you write and more than that... they like it! But I still wonder why do people prefer to tell me this in chats or in one-to-one conversation -but never put their comments on the blog! I feel good anyway, but its just that comments on the blog remain there forever, so its an opportunity for you to leave your mark permanent on my blog. डायलोग मारायचा झाला तर "all you have walked into my life and have made some special imprints forever -one way or the other... its just matter of putting it in small scale here. Your comments are valuable as much as you are!!! " :)

2:50 am, Feb21st, 2009

My first composition!

Yess... I managed to compose a tune for my new song! (the last post)

The best part is that I tried the composition to get in sync with emotions in the first 2 stanzas... and right after that, I realized the lyrics were such that the tune automatically followed this synchro subsequently!

I am not a good singer, but I would try to record that soon... may be the keyboard version!

Its indeed a big achievement for me... I can surely play almost any damn tune on my keyboard, but hey...!!!!! I've just composed a song of my own!!! (and not a pritam/anu malik composition)

(Btw, lyrics were written at abt 5 am this morning, I slept peacefully right after that... :) )

Every single night!

Sometimes when I close my eyes
and think 'bt me
Realizing I'm still at the place
I always used to be

I wonder then why n' how
but that's all i do!
but then I get this strong feeling,
well.. it's gotta be something'bt u!

I think of all the time together
we spent back then
I remember even a single detail
what, where n' when?

Things now have some contexts added,
but the bond is still strong
Perspectives might have even changed,
but haven't we cared all along?

Nothing has really changed trust me
everything's still the same
But uh oh! I fear this might get worse,
u wouldn't then even know my name!

"Would such a day follow???" I ask
...n' may be it soon would!!!
Its hard time to "accept" that
but yes, I know I should!

Uncomfortable; pretty long silences,
and no reason to smile
But I bet we wud 'smile' then often
or rather... all the while..?!

But why should u even care abt that???
u r ALL at peace!
But I don't have strength to face all that,
so avoid me then please

"Things in life that don't matter
u better throw them away
N' Some things when they do matter
let it not affect your way! :) "

I tell you all this so confidently
and look at myself back again
I laugh to see myself entangled
in waste smiles and pain...

M still hoping against the hope
realizing its a perpetual fight!
But what made you do this to me, I wonder,
and that too every single night???

-Vedhas Pandit